Paralysis

I know other people do this because I’ve talked to other people who do this. You get an email from someone, you mean to reply right away, but you don’t, and then you forget, and by the time you remember again, you’re afraid to send that email because doing so will call attention to how long it took you to send the email. So you ignore it while dreading to open your inbox in case you are reminded of what you’re not doing.

That’s basically what happened with this blog. I was so excited to be writing regularly again, and then I missed a self-scheduled deadline, and then I started to get anxious about it, and I got myself nice and worked up over how remiss I was, without any of the attendant incentive to actually sit down and write. The longer I didn’t post, the more anxious I got over how long it had been since I’d posted.

I’m trying to break out of the self-inflicted paralysis. I’m working on new patterns and on a writing project, in between sitting around anxiously waiting to hear from grad schools, and I want to get back in the habit of writing here. To that end, here’s a link to a post I wrote for Craftsy that fits in nicely with my Designing Lace Triangles series. It’s about shaping top-down shawls, and I had a lot of fun knitting tiny shawls as demos.

And here’s a tiny shawl modeled by a tiny T Rex.

She’s swank as all get out. Photos by my husband, Daniel Cardozo.

I’m going to get my feet back in the water tentatively, and be a little kinder to myself about deadlines, because I think I may get more done that way.

ALSO, in case you missed it, I made a list of unusual knitting patterns for The Toast.

I’m in limbo at the moment on where my life is heading, but hopefully I’ll get that sorted before my death!

Posted in Designing a lace triangle, Writing
5 comments on “Paralysis
  1. Annika says:

    I’m not sure what it says about where I am in my life right now, but my first thought on reading your last sentence here was, “Sorting things out before death seems like a reasonable goal.”

    • Kristen says:

      Yeah, I figure that if I don’t give myself enough of a running lead, I’ll never make it. My goalposts keep moving. I mean, I’m the one moving them, but still.

  2. Kat says:

    I love your T-Rex shawl model! I feel like I’m in a limbo state too, and every once in a while I need to take a minute to breathe and remind myself that I’ll figure it out eventually, and in the meantime I have friends who love and support me.

  3. I just went and read your post on The Toast. It gave me my chuckle for today. Thanks.

    Love the t-rex whimsy, too.

  4. Julia says:

    That pattern list is amazing and I can’t decide whether to knit that insane penis cardigan or not…

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